It doesn't matter what I do,
I have to understand
That every attempt to be somebody you're not will always bring disaster.
I kind of understand what I'm not capable of. And I kind of understand also why I should be somebody I'm not for a while. In order to get what you're dreaming of. You need to get out of your comfort zone. Focus on what's the end of the road. It sounds easy right?
Actually, I failed my many chances that come before my eyes.
I'm an introvert. I enjoyed my days staring at the sky, laying on my bed and listened to all the beautiful voices out there. And I can eat the same kind of food for a few weeks everyday. I know. I'm such a weirdo. And if I sound so emotional right now. I'm not. I sit here at the mall alone on my leave day. I spend my day talking to no one and just write what I had in mind. It's good though. Some people express their thoughts with talking or even something extraordinary. Me, I'm writing on my laptop and sip my bitter cold tea. I even manage to get some selfies.
See, if you let me talk, I could do it all day, to myself. I have no idea, what is wrong me with or even this is wrong. No one has tell me yet and I need to find it myself. Or I'd rather choose to be who I am now and made a breakthrough with my crazy imagination.
For those who read this until the end, thank you very much.
With Love
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